finding myself

[studentmage]

hello any and all how read this....
i just happened upon a huge amount of occult books about a month or two ago. as i read i started to understand what i have just passed by all my life.
i never was religious or thought about god. a few months ago i asked myself about religion and questioned my own spirituality. now reading some of scott cunninghams books on wicca. i love how both male and female are respected it's not just a male god it's a duality i love this.

but to get to my one question..... deity..... my god and goddess.

i don't know exactly where to start or how to explain this but i just don't feel i should believe in someones perception of the god and goddess. i would like to hear how you found your deity's to worship did they come to you or did you find them. i feel as if they cannot be images from mythology or even have visual shape but are more or less a feeling of knowing they are there but without visual form. if you understand that and can maybe help me understand a bit better for myself thank you.
maybe wicca is not for me but i love the "nature" of it.